A man said to be the boyfriend of a British-educated Bollywood star who apparently committed suicide has been remanded in custody following the reported discovery of a letter apparently written by her in which she accused an un-named person of cheating on her, forcing her to have an abortion and leaving her “broken inside”.
Suraj Pancholi, 21, himself an aspiring actor, was remanded until Thursday, after he was detained by police on charges of abetting the suicide of actress Nafisah Khan, who had also used the name Jiah.
Ms Khan’s body was last week discovered hanging in the Mumbai apartment she shared with her mother and sister. It was reported that the young woman was depressed about the state of her career after it had apparently stalled following early success.
The actress’s mother, Rabiya, has been pressing police in Mumbai to investigate any possible role Mr Pancholi may have had in her daughter’s death. This week Indian media reported that Ms Khan’s family had discovered a hand-written six-page letter, apparently written by the young woman before she took her life. It was found in her wallet.
'I don't know how to say this to you but I might as well now as I have nothing to lose. I've already lost everything. If you're reading this I might have already left or about to leave. I am broken inside. You may not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point where I lost myself in loving you. Yet you tortured me every day.
These days I see no light I wake up not wanting to wake up. There was a time I saw my life with you, a future with you. But you shattered my dreams. I feel dead inside. I've never given so much of myself to someone or cared so much. You returned my love with cheating and lies.
It didn't matter how many gifts I gave you or how beautiful I looked for you. I was scared of getting pregnant but I gave myself completely.
When I first met you I was driven, ambitious and disciplined. Then I fell for you, a love I thought would bring out the best in me. I don't know why destiny brought us together.
After all the pain, the rape, the abuse, the torture I have seen previously I didn't deserve this. I didn't see any love or commitment from you. I just became increasingly scared that you would hurt me mentally or physically.
Your life was about partying and women. Mine was you and my work. If I stay here I will crave you and miss you.
So, I am kissing my 10-year career and dreams goodbye. I never went with anyone else. I am a loyal person. No other woman will give you as much as I did or love you as much as I did. I can write that in my blood...
You never even met my sister. I bought your sister presents... You never appreciated my love, kicked me in the face... The Goa trip was my birthday present but even after you cheated I still spent on you.
I aborted our baby when it hurt me deeply... I wish you had loved me like I loved you... I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up again...'
To learn from this devastating story, please never lose hope or give up on yourself. God brought you alone into this world with your own individual purpose. It can never matter what is going on around you. As long as you are alive there is still hope and God has not forgotten you!
So sad.
Source: The Independent
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